WEEKLY BLOG: 1
But after some input from some of you I think I have finally found my structure.
I know that I can't commit to a daily blog, so to split the baby -and insure that there is fresh thoughts waiting for you to check out by logging into my blogging - I have decided to make my blog entries a weekly thing. With all of my best efforts I am going to commit to blogging my thoughts on things from the previous week's events in my life every Thursday in the month. Exceptions to this will be if I am out of town doing appearances, or making a movie, spending a holiday away from the computer, etc. With that said, I will blog on the Wedn before or the Fri after...something to that effect. ALSO, I wont be limiting my blogs to just the Thursday thing...so if something really SPECTACULAR comes to my mind, and I want to share, hey, you might have a couple blogs for the week..... ;-)
So let me kick things off. The blog entries will have two parts. Part 1 will be things going on in the porn industry that I want to talk about. And Part 2 will be things going on in my life that aren't porn-related, but yet I still want to talk about. ;-)
WEEKLY BLOG 1: PORN LIFE
*BLUE BLAKE ANNOUNCED THAT HE WAS RETIRING FROM THE PORN INDUSTRY.
This came as a shock to me. I worked for Blue on HARD AS ROCK back in March 2002, where he directed me with his real-life boxer discovery Brad Rock. I never really felt a connection with Blue on the set. Personally, I think he prefers and worships his bodybuilder models over the other talent (that would be me) on the set. The scene I shot was difficult for me because , as a bottom I like to GIVE the bottom equal control in the scene. Blue directed the movie by kinda pushing me around, and having me worship and service Brad Rock in the showers. It was one of the few instances where I felt exploited and humiliated on a set. So to each his own. The positive thing that I got when I left the set was a determination from there on out to not accept film work that showcased the bottom as being degraded and pushed around (which is why I turned down the part that Ollie Kicks took when Trent Cougar fucked him silly in SEX PIGS, VOLUME 1. To Ollie's credit, he did a GREAT JOB.....Its just that that wasn't the type of persona I wanted to project).
But back to Blue Blake. WOW! So he has decided to close up his business and retire from the porn world. I know models retire and return and retire and return and retire all the time. It will be interesting to see if Blue truly is leaving the business for good. His muscle-god worshipping movies certainly had their audience (not me), but I think Titan does a much hotter job with muscle men. Still, I wish Blue the best of luck with his retirement!
WILL CLARK'S BAD BOYS POOL PARTY:
The annual BBPP event in Palm Springs is over, and Will Clark has once again done an admirable job of raising movie for LA SHANTI. No gripes from me for the intent and purpose of the BBPP.
I DO gripe however at Will's public trashing of my name in public because I choose to do both bareback and safe sex video work, especially since word has it that Will barebacks in his personal life (according to many sources). I find this hypocritical in nature to attack me for something I do (on film and off) that Will probably also does (off and not on camera). I mean, if you are going to point a finger at barebacking in general, then you SHOULDNT do it AT ALL!
WEEKLY BLOG 1: PERSONAL LIFE
My friends went to go see THE INTERPRETOR, but I didnt go because dinner would have been after 8 PM, and the movie didnt start until 9:40 PM (East coast time). I have this mission right now to eat my last meal before 7 PM (who knows how long that will last, but the movie and dinner thing came about the very night that i made this mission go into effect). I hear the movie was decent, but I think I am ready for summer movies to take over the cineplexes anyway. Bring on the Sith!
My TV addictions this May include AMERICAN IDOL and AMERICAS NEXT TOP MODEL. On MODEL, NONE of the girls that are left interest me, so that addiction has waned. The bigger addiction for me is IDOL. Anthony was just eliminated last night (squashing my hopes that he and Bo would go head to head in the finale). With Anthony gone, Bo becomes my top choice to win the 4th season. Vonzell and Carrie are pretty, but Bo seems to be the real deal. And it will be great to have a 'rocker' win the event. .....I am waiting for DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES and LOST to come out on DVD. Since I missed early episodes of both shows, I have not watched either of them all season long. Instead, I hope they get their FIRST SEASONS released on DVD in late summer so that I can bone up on both shows before ABC starts airing Season TV in the fall.
Tonight I have to meet the owners of The Jackhammer bar, which is where my company Cre8tive Juices will be premieiring our first release DIRECT DEPOSIT on May 28th. My business partner cant make it, so I have to do this meeting solo. I am a bit nervous about that. I also am starting to get some anxiety when I go out in public...
I first noticed the anxiety yesterday at the gym. It felt like people were watching my every rep (which i was probably lifting wrong anyone, but thats beside the point). It could have been my imagination, sure! But the anxiety was there, nonetheless. It's also crazy because no one comes up to me and talks to me...even though I catch them looking or staring. For me, it's very difficult sometimes to be alone shopping or lifting or eating in public. When I have a friend, it's alllll good and i dont get the anxiety attacks. But when I am alone, I get real shy and stuff....
OKIE DOKIE...that was WEEKLY BLOG: 1. See ya next week! ;-)