Getting the hang of blogs ... finally
But after reading a few blogs religiously (gaysexblog.net being the key one), it made sense to me start up my own blog, especially coming off a very challenging 2004.
This whole 'porn star' thing can get itchy at times. Back when i had only one solo JO video under my belt in 1999 I was a far cry from being able to call myself a porn star. I figured to get that honor a performer had to have at least 6 videos on his resume, be listed in the Adam Gay Video Directory, be nominated/and maybe win some prestigious awards, and be all over box covers and magazines.
It took between 2002 and 2003 for me to finally be able to call myself a porn star. I definitely put in the work, won the honors of peers, and worked very hard at putting on a good show.
But then in mid 2004 I decided to venture into doing bareback video work. And with that decision comes a blacklisting and silence from those who I had once worked for in the safer sex studios. I suppose some of my 'star quality' was tarnished in the process. But prior to my bb stuff, i really had to question what was next for me. Certainly, new performers were taking over.... and I really felt I accomplished whatever I needed to do.
Am I still a porn star? I dont know the answer to that anymore. I guess only time will tell if the work I am doing today will gain acceptance by my peers down the long road. In any event, thanks to Raging Stallion's Chris Ward and Michael Brandon I was given 3 recent returns to my glory days of safer sex video work: GAY DREAMS 2, PARTY IN THE REAR!, and THE SHAFT. It certainly felt good again on those shoots to 'be back among the porn stars' ... even if my star had started to dim.